miffed

what's on the other side?
a peanut or a rainbow.
who is this that stands nearby?
he makes me anxious.
where do we go from here?
is this all that is left from her?
did she not care when she left?
she just walked out the door.
no words, no sigh, no looking behind.
just steps far, far away from here.
this is the life that has been given.
no choice was made from me.
it is the fault of all the others.
not once should this fall on me.
i cannot be the one to blame.
i was just out of sight.
the fault was mine, I held you too high,
the only way was down.
expectations were so broken,
there was no where to go.
the plan was fouled and soon today,
the paper will slip through his hands.
no worries, no dents, no accidents,
just love and smiles and plastic.
do not turn your head this way.
i will not look to you.
for ignorance is bliss.